Sole Provider
Now as it goes through the wire, I will never fall I got the soul of a fighter
Walk bare foot over the coal, over fire
Nobodys gonna love me like me so I'm my sole provider
Who ever thought -- I would ever be hurtin again?
Bein Chak – I should never feel a gap from friendssssss…
…Tryina help me through it all, yo Sammy I got you
Shel, whoever was there for me, Gev man not YOU…
But certain other friends that I had in my mindddddd
Whose support wasn't supposed to come at me from behinddddddd
Tryina FORCE out the phrase – like “I'm good” “I'm great”!!!!!!!!!
But they take facades like there is no hate
Just bein honest – do me and you have a purpose??
Or are ya only gonna care for my pain at surface…………….?
I Don't need pity at this stage of life
Tryina run a city, I gotta keep my block TIGHT
If youre not gonna vouch for me in these hard timesss
Don't call me hard headed I just have a strong mindddd
Only to be surrounded by the ones who're worthy
N put the fun friends somewhere where they couldn't hurt me
Jay said it best, finally I understand
That “it's a cold cold world but I blow my hands”
Nobody's got you - but you… You wanna be dependant?
Then do it knowing liabilities are endless
Cuz I don't wanna be the one who --- get's screwed overrrr
Just cuz I got love for you and I brought you closerrrrr
I don't wanna be the one who feels outta my zone
Cuz I gave to my own, I should never feel alone
The bar is low -- cuz my heart's cold
Still expect to get some calls though – I still haven't got those
Still have a long road, but I'm walkin
You said you'd be there, but I guess its – just you talking
Its MY problem though, I shoulda known better
I shouda honed in knowin that you've grown lesser
Still not gon' be phased by it, juss telling the truth
Playin by ear so I'm DEAF to you makin it through
Now if it goes through the wire, I will never fall I got the soul of a fighter --
Walk bare foot over the coal, over fire --
Nobodys gonna love me like me so I'm my sole provider
Ever since my girl left I haven't been on top
But I still write so the voices in my head could stop
Homie I write my life – and its way too real
You can hate me for it, this is how I deal
Mentally broken so I didn't see how to approach this
Now with finals comin up, I'd sell my soul for focus
Sell my limbs for peace, sell my heart for you
I'd stop breathin if I could, stop music too
I'll give it everything I have…Wish I had it back but before that I gotta get my life on trackk
This marks the last day that you see me chillin'
Prepare to: See me k**in, and me make millions…
N I ain't arrogant about it
For every step forward I look back n plan a better way to go around it
Heads up if sh** gets worse
So I could fix what I f**ed up -- without breakin it first
See Chak like a phoenix rise up from the ashes
N Kiss success -- the way you dudes kiss a**es
I make the BEST of it, ‘fore the moment pa**essss
God grant me patience to Ace my cla**es!!!
I'ma do it, make tracks, n drop this cla**ic
I've come a long way from getting my a** kicked…..
Getting hit with a ring, cuz I feel like a king
Plus I'm loving where I am not regretting a thing!!!!
But if it goes to the wire, I will never fall I got the soul of a fighter --
Walk bare foot over the coal, over fire --
Nobodys gonna love me like me so I'm my sole provider
PEACE!