{verse 1}
Moving away
No longer play
Trying to sleep
No longer see those plastic stars that once covered the walls
No longer feel like running in circles around dinner tables playing catch, now i don't even own a ball
{chorus 1}
Yeah, just reminiscing about the past
I was happy, naive and sh*t i thought it could last
You passed and i asked "my god how could this be"
No-one responded, now i can't recall your voice honestly
I feel weak and i got no one to relate
It was your birthday this week, i had forgotten the date
The weight is killing me and i just wanna make you proud
But what's the point in it all when you ain't even around
I'm tryna prove that raising me wasn't in vain
I've tried to swim, but now it seems like i'm just floating in pain
Hope i ain't doing this for nothing, hope the music i'm playing
Will reach one kid in this world who might be feeling the same
As me
Cause i've been hurting for so long
I barely feel like anything's wrong
{verse 2}
Bury my feet in the sand as i fight my feels
When did it all become so real
You fell apart, i watched you fall
My cousin came up to me crying, my mom was dead
So many thoughts ran through my head
Know that you gave it your all
{chorus 2}
Yeah, now i'm just in my room crying
"she's in a better place", lying
Anything's better than dying
Need to live, i forgive you for leaving me here
The fear of having me grow up alone, you could never prepare
And now it's too late, so many things i should've said
I wasn't there for you, i swear that sh*t's my biggest regret
I feel like i let you down, ran out of time, you tried everything
Can't live without you, i feel lost
And i'm in need of a pause, 'do anything to have you back
It doesn't matter the cost, and the wars you fought
Know it was breaking your heart
It's hard to be a body, when your body tears you apart
Damn
You were hurting for so long
You made it seem like nothing was wrong