[Hook]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
[Verse 1]
Don't you ever tell me my life is better than yours
Don't you even dare think you're right or bet it's for sure
I swear to you that's there's more to this perfect dream that you're seeing
Let me, give you a tour of this nightmare behind the scenes
Come step into my museum & just walk the hall
Cribs on MTV intend to see a bunch of masterpieces on the wall
Shocked to see it's just a dark room playing footage
Of my demons haunting my realities...
I got them all
Shots in the street equal shots of liquor
And I'm feeding me now that my mom is sicker
And these walls grow thicker as these problems bury me
I go to school still working hard but wearily
At times, I can't stand it I ask God to carry me
And He just makes me fresher, to put up with the pressure
I remember Lisa tell me I was great
And I just laughed it off even though I hate it cause...
[Hook]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
[Verse 2]
Family fighting, broken gla** bottles; don't mess with me
I'm tripping right? I must be on some kind of dose of ecstasy
Unreal... I just can't fathom why bad things are obsessed with me
That's probably why I had that bad chick standing next to me
I'm sorry but I had to let them know, Ashlynn
I couldn't do the things you wanted me to do just ask them
I had enough to deal with, I know u wanted to help me do it
But I did the biggest favor of not putting you through it
Had to get that off my chest, in case you ever here this song
I'm tryna make it right after all the mistakes that I did wrong
So this is an apology for being such a burden...
Now back to how my life is so concerning
People don't realize the way that I'm hurting
Real Eyes can't see the real lies I'm lurking
A smile on my face is enough to keep it hidden
And a fake personality can fool any observant
But I'm sick, and tired, I need to find the remedy
It's hard to balance this while I'm searching for my Identity
And only God knows where both these things can be
I just hope that I can get by this eventually
'Cause even though I'm strong & even though I manage
The pain of all my problems is starting to do some damage
The bruises and the cuts to my spirit is building up
And I can only heal so much with a bandage
Yet I still hear them say
"You have it nice, you're so easy going
You're so happy & chilled out, I can see it showing"
I tell 'em that I don't, "please stop boasting"
It's funny when they think that I'm joking 'cause...
[Hook]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls
[Verse 3]
Listen close, can you hear drops dripping?
Can hear the sounds of my kitchen clock ticking?
Can you hear the voices in my head stop speaking?
The emptiness inside is the reason I weaken
This girl once came to me to hold me & hug me
She told me that it's good I'm never lonely; I'm lucky
She told me she's been stressed and how she wished we could trade places
So I walked up to her face
And told her straight that...
[Hook]
Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls