[Verse 1: Cozjin]
I'm getting
Greater and I know it's hard for them to see
I'm changing not even close to who I used to be
Father left young but still believed in me
Trusted myself so I rejected work near the beach
Mother always working
Father never there
Brother lived on the streets, why ain't my sister here?
Childhood thoughts, but I just didn't know
I became so accustomed to being alone
Spent months in the crib
Talks over the phone
Only a short call, man, I gotta get going
In a mind of my own, my friends feel I'm dissing
'cause I'm not going out, I'm staying home
Rough times, but it made me who I am
Relied on nobody, had to my make myself a man
Had a talk with this girl with the new tan
Told her I rap
I could sense the pity
Before even hearing me spit, she told me to stop
"No Hamilton boy will ever make it out the city"
But I got work, don't you put me down
I ain't getting pa**ed on like every rapper from my town
And I understand why they all falling down
'cause mocking played out styles ain't worth pa**ing around
[Hook: JMSN]
There's something there inside me and it won't go away
It won't go away
Said there's something there inside me and it won't go away
It won't go away
[Verse 2: Cozjin]
My heads so gone, man I can't steer
I'm trying to get myself together though I do fear
I need to fix my sight
I can't see clear
I can't see through you anymore
And my visions so blurred it ain't like before
I need to get up off the road
I need to get going
I need to get home
I need to get out of here, I gotta leave, I gotta go
sh**'s way worse now
My fam wishes me the best, but I can see
They ain't proud
Got me feeling like I let 'em down
'cause while I'm focused on this
They say I should be done college now
True, but this is really what I wanna do
I'm putting up heavy dollars but I'm getting through
And if it don't work it's whatever
I'm doing what I f**ing love, ya'll wouldn't understand
And I'm gaining heavy weight, putting up heavy time
Maxing credit cards just to stay in line
Hectic work, but f**, I just wanna rhyme
And I'm pa**ing my old friends who copped the white line
The same ones who's parents ain't give 'em time
But mines stressing me out like I'm wasting mine
I got so much on my mind, convinced I've wasted my time
Stop, I'll be fine
Man, I'll be fine
She's spilling all, she's spending all, no
[Hook: JMSN]
[Interlude: Dan Walton]
And I'm standing here, with my feet in the dirt
I'm getting no where
See there's one thing that I need
It's just a simple change of scenery
And this place is getting old
Soon enough, you'll see it too
You'll see it too