{intro}
*phone ringing*
*footsteps*
*door slamming*
{verse 1}
My hands tremble as i sit and ramble
With a devilish grin smeared across my face
I'm enchanted by this ill trance that's
Got me lost in this cramped office space
And i rock away dazed in this creaky chair
Intently eying this lady eyeing greasy hair
Half here, half there, half aware she's scared
But i don't even care
My friend's sitting scripting my issues with her pen as i vent
Insisting i'll bring it all to an end
And then it hits me:
Therе's no end to this misery if i entеr it willingly
{bridge}
"silly silly man
It's up to you to centre yourself and find inner peace"
{verse 2}
Then i'm back in a funk grasping a cup filled with chilled beer
Crafted by monks, laughing it up stricken with ill cheer
Gagging i chug and bask in the stuff 'til i feel weird (yeah)
Acting rough i stab at my mug in my sink's mirror
I've got tweezers in hand pulling at strands i need to pluck
'cause i can't stand seeing them on my tongue
I'm ripping the flesh, killing the stress, gone freaking numb
Not even from the cuts bleeding on my gums
{pre-chorus}
Then it hits me...
I've been staring at myself bu*t naked for half an hour in misery
{chorus}
I only pray when i want something
I know the way yet get lost some times
I hope i'll make you unlock the gate
I hope i'll make you proud
I said
I only pray when i want something
I know the way yet get lost some times
I hope i'll make you unlock the gate
{post-chorus}
*inhale*
*exhale*
{verse 3}
I've had enough of these gashes and cuts of passion and lust
My skin's all scratched up from snagging even just a fraction of a buzz
The man in my mind's madly laughing it up
Screaming and bashing his skull with straight jacket snug (fu*k)
I'm tired as all chilling in sweat drenched socks
Sticking a lighter to my palm admiring the fire in awe
Wide eyed with a clenched jaw and a smile strung
I can't drop
Stuck staring at scripts scrawled for god
Sprawled on my knuckle dented walls
Then it hits me...
I should put my brain to use and paint the walls red with it
{bridge}
*gunshot*
*laughter*
{verse 4}
I've got knees to my head, water beating on my neck
I wheeze every breath as blood seeps through my skin
I'll reap what i sow, so when i sow no peace
I'll reap a freaking hell hole
I've got nails digging deep seeking the veins nestled beneath
Hell no, this ain't me
This skin don't fit right, it's tight
And this blood tastes a bit too nice
{interlude}
I wish i could just dissolve into bliss
Stuck living in twisted awe ridden with cognitive dissonance
If there's a point to all this sh*t then i'm missing it
{pre-chorus}
I'll be the first to admit it:
I fu*king hate myself but i love this sh*t
{chorus}
I only pray when i want something
I know the way yet get lost some times
I hope i'll make you unlock the gate
I hope i'll make you proud
I said
I only pray when i want something
I know the way yet get lost some times
I hope i'll make you unlock the gate