Colton Belley - Julie's Office lyrics

{intro} *phone ringing* *footsteps* *door slamming* {verse 1} My hands tremble as i sit and ramble With a devilish grin smeared across my face I'm enchanted by this ill trance that's Got me lost in this cramped office space And i rock away dazed in this creaky chair Intently eying this lady eyeing greasy hair Half here, half there, half aware she's scared But i don't even care My friend's sitting scripting my issues with her pen as i vent Insisting i'll bring it all to an end And then it hits me: Therе's no end to this misery if i entеr it willingly {bridge} "silly silly man It's up to you to centre yourself and find inner peace" {verse 2} Then i'm back in a funk grasping a cup filled with chilled beer Crafted by monks, laughing it up stricken with ill cheer Gagging i chug and bask in the stuff 'til i feel weird (yeah) Acting rough i stab at my mug in my sink's mirror I've got tweezers in hand pulling at strands i need to pluck 'cause i can't stand seeing them on my tongue I'm ripping the flesh, killing the stress, gone freaking numb Not even from the cuts bleeding on my gums {pre-chorus} Then it hits me... I've been staring at myself bu*t naked for half an hour in misery {chorus} I only pray when i want something I know the way yet get lost some times I hope i'll make you unlock the gate I hope i'll make you proud I said I only pray when i want something I know the way yet get lost some times I hope i'll make you unlock the gate {post-chorus} *inhale* *exhale* {verse 3} I've had enough of these gashes and cuts of passion and lust My skin's all scratched up from snagging even just a fraction of a buzz The man in my mind's madly laughing it up Screaming and bashing his skull with straight jacket snug (fu*k) I'm tired as all chilling in sweat drenched socks Sticking a lighter to my palm admiring the fire in awe Wide eyed with a clenched jaw and a smile strung I can't drop Stuck staring at scripts scrawled for god Sprawled on my knuckle dented walls Then it hits me... I should put my brain to use and paint the walls red with it {bridge} *gunshot* *laughter* {verse 4} I've got knees to my head, water beating on my neck I wheeze every breath as blood seeps through my skin I'll reap what i sow, so when i sow no peace I'll reap a freaking hell hole I've got nails digging deep seeking the veins nestled beneath Hell no, this ain't me This skin don't fit right, it's tight And this blood tastes a bit too nice {interlude} I wish i could just dissolve into bliss Stuck living in twisted awe ridden with cognitive dissonance If there's a point to all this sh*t then i'm missing it {pre-chorus} I'll be the first to admit it: I fu*king hate myself but i love this sh*t {chorus} I only pray when i want something I know the way yet get lost some times I hope i'll make you unlock the gate I hope i'll make you proud I said I only pray when i want something I know the way yet get lost some times I hope i'll make you unlock the gate