Torn apart
Thrown away
I don't even know what the f** to say
Suicidal thoughts in my brain every f**ing day
I still remember the day that my innocence past away
I'm f**ing lost I'm a castaway
I was taught all right but I was lead away by my inconsiderate immaturity
I'm plain f**ing empty
Lost all my purity
I wish my f**ing heart had security
But instead all I have is insecurities
See I don't what I'm saying
God is not around one eye open when I'm praying
Every time I start going down the right path I start straying
Come on god I really need somethin
Carving in my skin like it's a f**ing pumpkin
Doing d**, f**ing hoes, buying clothes
Hoping it will help me cope
Enjoy it for the moment for a second this sh**s kinda dope
But there still them lonely nights thinking am I happy? nope.
I don't even know what's keeping me afloat
Voices in my head telling me to sink the boat
Dreams of hanging by a rope
Wake up to find a blade in my coat
Slit my wrists
Smoke a blunt then I coast