Torn apart Thrown away I don't even know what the f** to say Suicidal thoughts in my brain every f**ing day I still remember the day that my innocence past away I'm f**ing lost I'm a castaway I was taught all right but I was lead away by my inconsiderate immaturity I'm plain f**ing empty Lost all my purity I wish my f**ing heart had security But instead all I have is insecurities See I don't what I'm saying God is not around one eye open when I'm praying Every time I start going down the right path I start straying Come on god I really need somethin Carving in my skin like it's a f**ing pumpkin Doing d**, f**ing hoes, buying clothes Hoping it will help me cope Enjoy it for the moment for a second this sh**s kinda dope But there still them lonely nights thinking am I happy? nope. I don't even know what's keeping me afloat Voices in my head telling me to sink the boat Dreams of hanging by a rope Wake up to find a blade in my coat Slit my wrists Smoke a blunt then I coast