So much pain in my heart, I buried deep inside
All the sh** that I've been through don't know how I'm alive
But I know that God has got he's the reason I survived, and my mama she's a blessing just for walking in on time
Nah I never had a dad, nah I never knew the love
What was going on in my life, how I'm suppose to know the trust?
Every man I know has left, how am I suppose to know respect?
Broke in a broken home, all I felt was my neglect
All I saw was mamma hurt, all I saw was mamma cry
She was deep in that depression, who was there to wipe her eyes?
Who was caring for my brothers? Who was taking caring of sis?
Yeah you bet the f** I did I was daddy to those kids
Now my babies growing up and I miss 'em all the time
But I'm trying to make a check so I can give 'em better lives
And my mamma did her best, but she need to rest her feet
Gotta repay my mama for all the sh** she done for me
Ain't nobody ever help us we were almost on the street
Food bank first in line when we had nothing to eat
Three babies that were hungry and just mama and me
All this family around and still no place for me to sleep
It's funny how people will treat you only call you when they need you, when you down and disappeared now you up and they wanna see you
Now they talking bout I see you, oh you see me, why?
Before your girl was popping would've thought that you was blind
Don't you talk bout the struggle if you never lived a day
Don't you say you can feel my pain unless you truly can relate
Don't say that you was down when in my worst you gave me space
Had no food up in the house but still had too much on our plates
So talk about me like you know me
Spread the rumors for the hype
Tell the people who I am like you know sh** about my life
Once my friends smile in my face, but to my back they got a knife
& they would lay out all my business just to get a couple likes
f** it, lay out all my business just to ride a couple dicks
And they mans is Riyah fans so they pulling out the pics
Saying Riyah that's my b**h
Known her since she was a kid
b**h you tripping think you slick, why the f** you telling fibs?
Man I hate when b**hes name me
Hate when b**hes play me
Hate when b**hes think they got the power and can change me
Been through hell and back and I'm still waiting at the gates, in case these b**hes trying to test me and they think to play it safe
But yo shout out out to my day one, always been my main one. Even when we make it won't forget 'bout where we came from. f** the sh** we did, but I'm proud of where we at
And I promise when I get it, I ain't never going back