Ever watch someone you love lose they mind right in front of ya eyes?
Like mentally they in a difference space a different time
Only to heal temporarily, you can see the scar
The lion king isn't there no more, he within the stars
My, my, my, how could this happen?
I guess by now I know that my favorite path is rappin', but after what had happened, the rappin' became my napkin for the tears
All these years I swear these demons attackin'
And not Lucifer demons, 'cause I know I found new meanin' outside of Christianity, and don't wanna sound demeaning
But I see god of nature, not everything what it seem and
I don't really know... do you? That's what I mean, no really
Have you been handed the keys to all reality? Have you been exposed to an astral plane? sh** we haven't seen?
I seen my brother scream in tears of insanity on the ground, still the sound haunts my soul, feelings of no control
Over the ones that you love
Nowhere to look, no above
Only below, under the soil, don't need a hell to boil
Should've known that addiction would break relations down
Should've known within struggle, the deeper love is found
'Cause sh** is straight, but it took time and lots of hard work
Years later, it's a gift to know that he ain't get murked
Evermore, my brother pushed and found out his way...
[2016, he relapsed...]
But through the pain, I hit the catalyst for mental change
I can't know what's real, and that's what keeps me sane, mayne
I was raised under Jesus, for my parents? The same thang
Ignorance brings pain to my brain and heart at the same time
Same kind of pain I feel with these same lines
From carbon copy rappers and copy cats
Speak from your soul, this is is soul, word to ab, word to ab
Depressing or a stab to the pineal gland, a crash
Lamenting for a pa**, for these trivial plans to match
My goals and all I want, 'cause I swear in life, there's a rash
Well rashes man, it's plural 'cause life done opened a gash
Inside my heart
But I'd be dead if life could k** my art, I've had the easel buried within my soul from the very start
You see, it's people I'm after
People or spirit or whatever's in their minds that connects so they can hear it
Connects so they can feel
"God" I wish were real but I see it as unknown in the creation that we feel
Not as a personal presence 'cause essence is of d**h now
And all I've done is live, so why I gotta feel that stress now, I'm blessed now
ScHoolboy Q reminded me, 'cause even with the sh** I'm dealing with, the past ain't blinded me
It's just a sign to me, it's fine to be
Challenged and out of balance, but that beam always lined with me and always has been
If I fell off that beam, I'd be a has-been
Except I never was
That's just the business, bruh
For this rap sh**, this rap sh** a white tee, and I wanna be a black stain, a deep mark that's rooted in the fabric and maintained
That no OxiClean could ever obliterate, man get it straight