Cameron Ross - Stop Shaking Your Leg (複雑な心境) lyrics

Ever watch someone you love lose they mind right in front of ya eyes? Like mentally they in a difference space a different time Only to heal temporarily, you can see the scar The lion king isn't there no more, he within the stars My, my, my, how could this happen? I guess by now I know that my favorite path is rappin', but after what had happened, the rappin' became my napkin for the tears All these years I swear these demons attackin' And not Lucifer demons, 'cause I know I found new meanin' outside of Christianity, and don't wanna sound demeaning But I see god of nature, not everything what it seem and I don't really know... do you? That's what I mean, no really Have you been handed the keys to all reality? Have you been exposed to an astral plane? sh** we haven't seen? I seen my brother scream in tears of insanity on the ground, still the sound haunts my soul, feelings of no control Over the ones that you love Nowhere to look, no above Only below, under the soil, don't need a hell to boil Should've known that addiction would break relations down Should've known within struggle, the deeper love is found 'Cause sh** is straight, but it took time and lots of hard work Years later, it's a gift to know that he ain't get murked Evermore, my brother pushed and found out his way... [2016, he relapsed...] But through the pain, I hit the catalyst for mental change I can't know what's real, and that's what keeps me sane, mayne I was raised under Jesus, for my parents? The same thang Ignorance brings pain to my brain and heart at the same time Same kind of pain I feel with these same lines From carbon copy rappers and copy cats Speak from your soul, this is is soul, word to ab, word to ab Depressing or a stab to the pineal gland, a crash Lamenting for a pa**, for these trivial plans to match My goals and all I want, 'cause I swear in life, there's a rash Well rashes man, it's plural 'cause life done opened a gash Inside my heart But I'd be dead if life could k** my art, I've had the easel buried within my soul from the very start You see, it's people I'm after People or spirit or whatever's in their minds that connects so they can hear it Connects so they can feel "God" I wish were real but I see it as unknown in the creation that we feel Not as a personal presence 'cause essence is of d**h now And all I've done is live, so why I gotta feel that stress now, I'm blessed now ScHoolboy Q reminded me, 'cause even with the sh** I'm dealing with, the past ain't blinded me It's just a sign to me, it's fine to be Challenged and out of balance, but that beam always lined with me and always has been If I fell off that beam, I'd be a has-been Except I never was That's just the business, bruh For this rap sh**, this rap sh** a white tee, and I wanna be a black stain, a deep mark that's rooted in the fabric and maintained That no OxiClean could ever obliterate, man get it straight