To my family and my friends, I'm sorry I disappeared for a while
Didn't even know I'd be here for a while
I thought I'd be gone, gone up off this earth
See me buried in the dirt
But f** that, this is my rebirth
I've been putting in this work
And I hope it f**ing works
See, I've been trying to find my place
I know I've made mistakes
But if there's god if me grace
I've had my taste, and now I need it
And I'm sounding so conceited
Because I want the riches and the fame
I want them all to know my name
To be the best up in the game
I'll never be the same
Nothing was the same
Tell me who's to blame
It was my responsibility
And it was k**ing me
What can I do now?
I hope I make it through now?
If I record this sh**, will you listen to it?
It sound different don't it?
In the mirror is my only opponent
And I'm waiting for my moment
No wait f** it, I'm gonna take it and I'll own it
I have to do this on my own
I'll have to get up in my zone
Hear me on this microphone
I've spitting out these poems
Mom I'm coming home, mom i'm coming home
Because I love you, I'd put nothing up above you
You told me only god can judge you, you're so stubborn I knew I could not budge you
See, I was doing all these d** for a temporary buzz
All the alcohol in the system, All these d** boy, got me tripping
I don't know what I'm doing am I a victim?
I guess this is addiction
But I don't know and I'm feeling such affliction
But I knew I'd make change and turn it right around
Build it right up from the ground
This will not hold me down
It was my responsibility
And it was k**ing me
What can I do now?
I hope I make it through now?
If I record this sh**, will you listen to it?
It sound different don't it?
In the mirror is my only opponent
And I'm waiting for my moment
No wait f** it, I'm gonna take it and I'll own it
My life my responsibility and I'm finally taking ownership
I hope you know this sh**
This was never in the plans
That one day I'd grow up and be the man
No it hasn't happened yet, but it will happen