Brydzy - Unruly lyrics

To my family and my friends, I'm sorry I disappeared for a while Didn't even know I'd be here for a while I thought I'd be gone, gone up off this earth See me buried in the dirt But f** that, this is my rebirth I've been putting in this work And I hope it f**ing works See, I've been trying to find my place I know I've made mistakes But if there's god if me grace I've had my taste, and now I need it And I'm sounding so conceited Because I want the riches and the fame I want them all to know my name To be the best up in the game I'll never be the same Nothing was the same Tell me who's to blame It was my responsibility And it was k**ing me What can I do now? I hope I make it through now? If I record this sh**, will you listen to it? It sound different don't it? In the mirror is my only opponent And I'm waiting for my moment No wait f** it, I'm gonna take it and I'll own it I have to do this on my own I'll have to get up in my zone Hear me on this microphone I've spitting out these poems Mom I'm coming home, mom i'm coming home Because I love you, I'd put nothing up above you You told me only god can judge you, you're so stubborn I knew I could not budge you See, I was doing all these d** for a temporary buzz All the alcohol in the system, All these d** boy, got me tripping I don't know what I'm doing am I a victim? I guess this is addiction But I don't know and I'm feeling such affliction But I knew I'd make change and turn it right around Build it right up from the ground This will not hold me down It was my responsibility And it was k**ing me What can I do now? I hope I make it through now? If I record this sh**, will you listen to it? It sound different don't it? In the mirror is my only opponent And I'm waiting for my moment No wait f** it, I'm gonna take it and I'll own it My life my responsibility and I'm finally taking ownership I hope you know this sh** This was never in the plans That one day I'd grow up and be the man No it hasn't happened yet, but it will happen