Have you ever seen this side of me? Staring off and thinking if this is all there is I always thought I'd die alone and confined I'm holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine Like a needle and thread can't stitch up or mend Any minor mishap that's been taking over to my bitter end And It's just my luck again and again Still going down, and down I spin Give it up So if you picked up the phone You maybe would've known That this outcast stuck in the past broke Every fu*king vow we talked about It's not the worst that it's been I know that I'll never win A goal that's just out of reach Like my new year's resolutions I'll watch the clock racing to and forth I'll be pacing This is the rеason I'm this way This is the reason I'm so afraid It's starting up again and now it's brimming I won't hold this in or let it gеt the best of me Is something waiting for us at the end of the earth? I get so existential when I think too much I know I'm going to die alone and confined I'm holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine Like a needle and thread Can't stitch up or mend Any minor mishap that's been Taking over to my bitter end And It's just my luck, again and again Still going down, and down I'll spin Still going down, and down I spin I'm giving up