Young Gully - Talk 2 You (Ft. Big Klef) lyrics

[Intro: Big Klef] I don't know what I'm doing So many things I do and I don't know why [Verse 1: Young Gully] Opportunity hear me knocking at his door, why he ain't letting me in Grew up a John Doe, man I was some dust in the wind In the storm with that umbrella, I got left in the wind And now the future's what I embody that's the essence within I used to think that the devil was like a brother to me That was until I felt the pain of my mother and me I fell in love with [?] he gonna get enough of them streets Mad at this whole f**ing world, even held a grudge in my sleep Chip on my shoulder, looking right in the eye of the beholder Though it's freezing already, seems every night is getting colder Dear God tell me, why everyone got flaws with you And if I don't fear no man, why should I be appalled to you When I got my back against the wall, [?] I'm confused, cause Father I no longer know which side I'm on f** everybody, this time I know what's right or wrong [Hook: Big Klef] I try to do right, but wrong seems so easy I think about it all the time I don't know what I'm doing I look up in the sky and I say oh why So many things I do and I don't know why I wanna talk to you Lord, yeah I wanna talk to you [Verse 2: Young Gully] Every time I look up in that mirror, me and him have a talk First I speak, then I stop to listen while he's giving his thoughts You goin' crazy off that boy, did you consider the cost Cause ever since Bob died it's like your vision's been off The tide's rough and you cryin' the same rivers you crossed But you gotta fight through the mistakes for all the n***as you lost I replied, you're like the friend that I never had And I got you by my side and for that I'm forever glad But it's like my heart is more frozen than the Everglades Still ducking the flames stuck inside the devil's maze See through my eyes and you'll be looking through a rebel's gaze Reaching for a light just as a harp up in heaven plays I've been stacking money, same clothes on for seven days Getting nowhere, it's like having a job that never pays This sh** is no fair, I guess the sunshine never stays I'm trapped in the rain, and deemed a victim to the weather's ways So I pray [Hook] [Verse 3: Young Gully] Most of the time I'm too occupied with running from myself I just want to be me, but I'm becoming something else The reaper hunting for me, to take my soul from my flesh Since I'm adjacent to anguish, chasing my goals is a test I'm so impatient, paintings of how I'm feeling will reflect Daffodils with no water, friends who got k**ed [?] d**h And I'm losing my mind, cause even when I try my hardest What I usually find is a dead end, I die regardless But at least while I'm here Will I get far and what's my limit How long do I gotta starve If I'm a star then I'm the dimmest God I'm searching for [?] I ain't here to spread it throughout my body like a plague I switched my life with a [?] [?] and get shot down the next day While I'm reclining like I'm paid Lord I'm looking for light, so tell me why I'm getting shade [Hook]