You me and apollo - A pearl lyrics

I think of the nights you couldn't sleep without the glow of the television screen Or all of the times that I checked all the locks cause you were afraid of the dark I called you my wife, and you called me a liar Well, this, this is all too much Well, I tend to commit like a blind man in a well with nothing but rope That he hopes will carry him out But sees no light at the top We shared us a place We made it a home But I was the ball to your chain You still have my heart No matter the condition you leave it in And I, I cried out to god, I laughed in my car, and I sobbed in my hands I'm headed, headed for the end And I can't hold a gun How selfish I am And I've been taught what was right, taught how to swim, been taught how to rot because of my sin Yeah I was, was not the first, nor the last, but the only one to mean something between your thighs You were drunk, you were tired and lonely at the time Could you wear your ring and not think of me? They say that you're honest when you're drunk So, were you honestly honest when you slept to the beat of a heart you didn't know You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart) And I hope for the best But there's nothing left that beats in my chest