Yellow Red Sparks - To Love and Loathe lyrics

I'd buy a suit, a fancy coat And bonnets for your hair to make you feel alive when you don't I know you said long ago The lines you cross will cost you son, it's done, more than you'll ever know But I love you and then I loathe you You let me bend and break to suffocate And if I want to, let me haunt you I'm in your dreams for now…bet you don't know how I go to eat and every street Reminds me of the walks and talks and flowered sandals on your feet And happy times have gone behind The screen that flickers on until it's gone, while you're moving on But I love you and then I loathe you You let me bend and break just to suffocate And if I want to, let me haunt you In your dreams for now, ‘til you don't know how I got out (Don't leave me, don't leave me and don't lead me on) And all the time I thought that it was hard And then you rot within his arms That's what I fought for so long And if I love you why do I loathe you? I've learned they're both the same when I hear your name And if I miss you or just resist you You're in my dreams for now, ‘til I don't know how you got out