Year Of Desolation - Forged In The Flames Of Malcontent lyrics

Constantly fighting self mutilation in a battle of self control, seeking answers and forgiveness finding patience in my soul, but my patience was blessed, by a martyr and with a kiss From the degradation of protagonists fueled by everything I wish I could express In my forgiveness for everything I can't control, learning to accept my defects, learning to exert control Unlearning all the old resistance for something that I never even knew I had Learning to create a defense for something I've become: forged in the flames of malcontent! The weapon is within disseminating everything I've known and creating ways to change habitually the rituals I see withholding my true self I feel trapped in a world of endless regret, strung along and on and on This regret strung my life along From failed relationships: sacrifices had to be made, I reached within and opposed my innerself to overcome fear again To discover a sickness solely so deep in my soul that I can't see and uncover genetics, forcing me to be, something I can't be Persistence, relentless, futile, everyone will die alone Resistance, merciless, exile, everyone will die alone Can we get through this? (I don't wanna die alone) can I see through this? (I don't wanna live alone) reaching acceptance (I don't wanna live alone) accept existence: everyone will die alone