XZaR - Proud Of Me lyrics

[Verse 1] My father didn't make it to thanksgiving He already had enough on his plate And I admire him for being resilient But misery is stuck on his face I really hate the fact I add to his stress Every time he lights a cig I see him gasping for breath Grabbing his chest as he falls to the floor Doc's asking me whether to take him off of the cord He doesn't see that he's k**ing himself And he blows off anyone whose willing to help Not realizing he's acting the same way that his uncle did And unfortunately he died all because of it If that isn't the biggest wake up call I really hope and pray to god that my little brother is I really hope and pray to god that my little brother is [Hook] I know that we usually don't speak Were not as close as we used to be But it is something that just lies deep in me I just want you to be proud of me, whoa oh [Verse 2] He told me he had a dream that I bought him a house Which is crazy, cause I really only thought of it now I think at that moment he really started believing me Which was a relief to me, cause the part that was eating me- Alive, is that I knew he thought he had failed me As a parent, but it ain't really as apparent- As most of these kids, who didn't even graduate Had some of their own and started moving halves and eighth's At least I stayed out of the game for my daddy's sake But luckily, he saw custody he had to take Now I don't know if he forseen my mother's fall To become a drug lord and just say f** it all But I thank him for taking me at a crucial time I wouldn't be rapping right now, I'd be shooting nine's I wouldn't be rapping right now, I'd be shooting nine's [Hook] [Bridge] All I ever wanted was to make you proud All I ever wanted was to make you proud All I ever wanted was to make you proud And I gotta do it so I'm moving, out All I ever wanted was to make you proud All I ever wanted was to make you proud All I ever wanted was to make you proud And I gotta do it so I'm moving, out [Hook]