XZaR - Happiness lyrics

[Intro: Talking] XZaR.. You ever feel like.. You just can't be happy.. No matter what you do?.. Me too [Hook] When one thing in life seems to f** up Then everything else starts to crush Us This feeling of help, I've had enough of I just want to be happy [Verse 1] When did a smile become a luxury? Did somebody vow just to f** with me? Cause suddenly everything around me is crumbling When sh** was just good, I mean how the f** did this come to be?! Is god trying to punish me? cause my girl stopped loving me Friends are not company, pops got another seed And mom's just struggling while I'm here suffering Cause these are all the things that I gotta keep juggling It's been a while now and sh** ain't looking up for me But way too many times I've given up with ease And I can't do it.. no, I won't do it Cause I know there's a reason I have to go through this At least, that's what it says in my belief But from what I can see, there isn't any prize for me Just more driving me to make that suicidal leap Stare d**h's face just to say, who am I to cheat?! That's when that little voice, inside of me decides to speak Xavier, you don't know how devastated lives will be If you try to leave, are you really that selfish? I'm sorry, I don't know where my damn help is [Hook] [Verse 2] But I guess that's too much to ask I'm so tired of being misery's punching bag They always say you gotta appreciate what you have Well does that still apply to people who have nothing grasped? Just for once, I would love to live problem free In this economy and finally got the job I seek Pay all the college fees, maybe a little drop for me Have a social life and stop being a psychotic teen that's- Locked in a box it seems, so I jot all my thoughts and dreams That were plotting subconsciously trying to block what my eyes have seen I guess what I'm really asking is perfection Well excuse me a moment while I bask in it's rejection I understand struggle is a part of life But why the f** does it have to be so hard to fight?! I thank with all my might I'm born with an artist's sight Cause being a christian doesn't always bail you through the darkest nights But if it wasn't this, I wouldn't have bars to write So maybe this f**ed up sh** is something I'll start to like For a change, instead of always trying to doubt sh** But if happiness forgets you, never forget about it [Hook: X2]