Xavier - I'm Afraid lyrics

Intro: Yeah.. there is a moment when you actually have to, f**ing grow up (Verse 1) The transition from a boy to a man But I don't wanna grow up, I wanna stay where I am I just wanted to dream To be free To be heard To be me And I'm afraid to hear what people might think And I'm afraid that I'll grow up to be mean To be hated, un-trusted I'm afraid when I'm married the girls will come back that I lusted For, then they run out the door Then I never see them again. no more And that I feel dead inside, I am dead inside... But I'm afraid to let it show, and I'm afraid to let them know That I wish I can die I wish they knew I wasn't afraid of suicide.. Of suicide But, I'm afraid that I won't go to heaven I'm afraid that I will go to hell And I'm afraid that I will never learn my lessons And I'm afraid that I will never do well And I'm afraid that I never stop lying Cause I really truly am afraid of dying I'm just lying to myself... I really hate myself I'm afraid of what people might think of this song I'm afraid cause I've been holding this in for too long I'm afraid to feel anything cause I'm dead inside I'm afraid cause I forgot how it feels to be alive Outro: I forgot how it feels to be alive (to be alive) Well ain't that some sh**...