WVE - Positive/Negative lyrics

My life is like a story, I don't want get philosophical But I'm going to have to if I want to be astronomical You see I'm only seventeen but I'm scared of the future I just want to do everything I love but I'm scared I'll be butchered What if I end up with no money, nobody to love me? How am I supposed to come back I'm not trying to be funny I'm telling jokes all the time, but I can't bare to look at my watch Time is running from me, like a plus one, invited to watch Even though I'm young I get all nostalgic every time I try to write If only I could go back right now, tonight Watching rugrats and hiding from mum when she comes to get you Life really hasn't gotten any better Since those days of thinking there were wolves in the walls Even the days of anxiety, mum dealing with all of my calls But there was some good in there I had fun and not a worry in the air At least not about my future, my money or my life sh** man, one day I'm going to have to find a wife I mean another person supposed to make it easier But these days' marriages don't tend to break the 6-month barrier What is love these days? Facebook official and Skype s**, it happens everyday But anyway I know my homies will always be there Sometimes life just isn't fair Girls will come and go but my homies will be around forever I don't take that sh** light hearted either And there's no f**ing code you need to decipher It's just be there when we need each other If you can do that then I can call you my brother I just need to write raps about my life What is real and what isn't real? It's all come out, no matter how sad I'll never touch the knife I value everything I have, so don't tell me I don't Cause if you ever need my help I promise I won't Do not. Will not. My life seems pretty negative But I promise it's happy, I'm keeping it in the positive It's just sometimes it gets on top of me If I ever start cutting f** that please murder me I'd rather be sad and upfront, than sad and concealed Because that way the pain can never truly be revealed I think it's very, I think my life is very scary I'm not trying to be wary I'm living it to the fullest I promise I'm taking every aspect of it in; I'm keeping myself the realest