Witt Lowry - How Should I Feel lyrics

[Chorus: Meg & Dia & Witt Lowry] Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here Looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness And they say they won't go (Yeah) [Verse 1: Witt Lowry] Stare long enough at the abyss and it seems to start to stare back at you Lost inside my head, it's a scary place I've adapted to Friends and family call and I tell 'em that “I'll get back to you” Too busy on my phone, doomscrollin', spent the afternoon Stressed out, head down, can barely leave my bed now I hate thеse fu*kin' feelin's, they tell mе to try these meds out But doc, we've only talked for like ten minutes, I'm sketched out Paranoid, can't tell if these people are foes or friends now You know what it feels like to feel like nobody can help? On top of that feel like you're losing yourself I wouldn't even wish my enemies the hand I was dealt Thought I could pay the pain to fade with some material wealth But tears fallin' in the Tesla, I guess it's kind of ironic To feel so fu*king broke inside somethin' I always wanted My demons came to play, it feels like my brain may be haunted Hate myself sometimes as much as they hate on me to be honest I saw fentanyl take the life away from my cousin I watched alcohol steal the life away from my dad I came from nothing, now I'm scared that might be what I'm becomin' Look in the mirror, barely recognize the one lookin' back, so [Chorus: Meg & Dia] Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here Looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness And they say they won't go [Verse 2: Witt Lowry] Wrote a song when my dad passed and they said it was trash That made me wish that I put less of myself into every track I know you can't just burn the orchard when one apple is bad But the fact of the matter is that I feel I'm startin' to crack And they say “Don't take it to heart,” well, how the fu*k do I not? When I put my soul inside somethin' and they say it's a flop Constantly tear my art apart when this is all that I got They wanna see me on a stage or me left in a grave to rot I've been overstressin' 'bout overstressin' I lie in bed and think about this life I manifested Yet my depression's always yellin' that I'm destined for regression Sad obsession with progression Still they think that I'm just desperate for attention Broke, down about around this time just last fall At therapy tellin' my therapist I feel so small Pushed everyone I love away, and fu*k, it's all my fault Is it better to feel like this or to feel nothin' at all? I turned the lights down lonely Remember back when we would cash in cans at the grocery Weren't there when I was drowning but the first to say “You know me” So sick of people saying that they care and never show me My grandpa once told me that inside an empty mind is where the devil likes to play And everyday it's all the same, I just stare at an empty page Ruminate about all the things that have piled up on my plate Time I take control of my brain, know I can't just pray this away, so [Chorus: Meg & Dia] Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here Looking through the windows Monster, there are voices In the darkness And they say they won't go [Outro: Meg & Dia] (Through the windows) Monster, there are voices In the darkness And they say they won't go