Wiser Observer - Hypocrite lyrics

[Verse 1] I pray that my kids will be nothing like me A moral code that I'm still busy fighting 3 a.m. and a n***a still busy writing Cigarettes for my mind just to keep it spiking And I'm really trying to quit for this girl I'm liking But there's things I'm going through I'm keeping silent 'Cause it's not my part to tell It's not hard to tell That my soul is really crying I'm not even trying I don't care for me I'm still alive cause my mother still pray for me I'm well aware of the things that are bad for me And thanking God in my music sounding like blasphemy And my poems make people say preach But my raps make people get drunk & smoke weed I rhyme about the things that people don't need Gun metaphors never seen a man bleed #FeesMustFall but I never do a deed Then I rap k** them all I rap about the greed I rap about the boys one day I will feed Then I rap about the finish line I'm scared I'll never see [Hook x2] I'm a hypocrite Everybody down your globe you can be like me First thirty at the door and the drinks are free Please give me an applause for the things I preach [Verse 2] Say one thing, but go and do the other In the shadows I rebel against my mother Pseudo peace of mind when I'm drinking undercover Gin and tonic for my sisters and my brother Holy sh** what a year 2017 can't believe I made it here Let's be clear 'Cause 2016 is the worst I've ever been through Bottled up trauma that almost ripped my mental I'm a hypocrite, I'm not doing okay There's a weight in my chest that's about to break me Some days feel like something's trying to suffocate me Thank God for the wonderful soul who chose to date me 'Cause lately I've been having bad days, just enough good days for me to hold on 'Cause it's not bad day, it's the night time pain need a cold one I've been feeling so low Hold my feelings so close Maybe one day I will write what's in my brain Either people don't know Or people don't show Or people don't care about the pain [Hook x2] I'm a hypocrite Everybody down your globe you can be like me First thirty at the door and the drinks are free Please give me an applause for the things I preach [Verse 3] Don't look at me This club's too full, can't breath, stop pushing me Going to need a gwaai and a couple more drinks in me I thrived the whole week it's like home is where I'm visiting And I'm never missing it Who has the bottle? Swing it here let's finish it Need another drag, bring it here before k**ing it I swear 2017 addictions I'm sealing it But the beer plaak I'm feeling it Head rush I'm digging it Only go to church for mamma Then justify my problems cognitive dissonance Kiss my baby nephew forehead Wonder how it works in your head In our household stress is name calling They try to hide it, but I see it on their foreheads And I see it in the mirror too "How was your day?" "It was fine and you?" Who's fooling who? Take another shot to this beat that I'm cruising to [Hook x2] I'm a hypocrite Everybody down your globe you can be like me First thirty at the door and the drinks are free Please give me an applause for the things I preach