Will Sheff - From A Cutla** Cruiser lyrics

What a day we had I figured I'd be feeling bad, but I don't feel a thing They read from Mark and bring us all up Shingle Camp Hill Road Throwing flowers at the ground felt like hours With the grown-ups whimpering In the blown-out green of spring I see the whole small town explode Driving to our house at night The stars shoot out their shine behind the Olds windows My father quiet behind the wheel I fully feel that he knows where he's trying to go And then they carry me inside This other world behind my eyes, this bright-lit neon glow And then it's morning everywhere, and summer air, and there's the stereo "The Electric Company" was playing when my mom left me five minutes on the couch And I was blue when she came out, and wasn't breathing That Opel flew through town All down 120, and around the Lebanon green, and out I don't know what they were thinking about And I don't want to imagine it In came the doctor, wearing white Carefully, he cut a circle in my throat And took a little plastic tube and looped it through my lungs and sealed me closed My parents called into the room With no idea what to do but frightened to say so They showed them how to clean it out, and showed them how to set me down, and sent me home 1983 — the apparition came to me and spoke to me all night Frozen inside my bed, bone-white, my brother fast asleep And, under surgery, a second time it came Showed me a house in outer space Another boy who had my face A mom and dad who weren't the same I woke up and my aunt gave me a book Show me the neatest place to hide, to crawl inside the silver gym Don't tell a single other soul Beneath the bleachers is a lighter, and a sneaker, and a frozen sparrow I broke into the church at night and pulled out all the stops and heard that organ overload And screamed, "This giant clashy chord is for Our Lord. Up where he is. Up where he goes" Up that music floats Leaving family, friends and home down so small below And it's still there, for all I know