Too much is conditional And too much has changed Why do I feel so defeated If everything is still pending? I want to be that Person that helps another Hold their head up high But I have too many Problems of my own I just wanna stay unknown Until the day I die I can't give up but I want to so badly Feeling alone What's someone like me to do? Do I do this to myself Or is this solely because of you? Too afraid to start And too afraid to finish I'll put on a brave face So you can bare witness Adolescence to adulthood Everything in between is a blur I rode the waves, somehow Somehow I'm just not sure Was it me who really did this? Was it me who ruined your life? Is it me the one who deserves to die?