Violent J - Suicide Hotline lyrics

[Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)] (Suicide Hotline, may I help you?) Yeah...uh...well I'm 'bout to f**in' k** myself (Listen, you don't wanna do that, okay? You don't wanna do that) I'm gonna..eh...there's so many f**in' reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore (There's no reason..) I'm gonna put a slug in my f**in' head! (You don't wanna do that, you wanna be here on Earth okay?) f** that sh** man! I got a gun right now..(Put it away) And I got it right under my chin man, f** that! (Take it away from your chin) I'm gonna f**in' blow my head all over the ceiling (No you're not..okay?) f** this sh** man.. (Hey, just talk to me, okay?) [Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)] It ain't no point to me wakin' up Everybody's time I'm takin' up (Noo) I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near I can't stay here and it's colder there (Where?) I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt I slice my wrists and it's gonna squirt (Ooh) For me, everybody holds a hate I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive (Ooh) Bustin' at myself and I'm tryin' to survive I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down And I ain't got many home boys comin' around (No?) You don't understand, so don't say you do (Oh yes I do) I swear I'll put a motherf**in' slug in you (Now now) I'm the only one, the lonely one At home alone, loadin' a gun thinkin' why not? [Suicide Hotline Operator] Why not? Why you wanna die? Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay? I understand that, feelings lead to depression When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart Okay? And your heart means everything to the world, okay? [Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)] I got court comin' up, I stole the truck I got a b**h pregnant and I'm broke as f** I wanna get high but I got piss test (Well..) I'm always first name on top of the sh** list (Noo) Get this, the Witch has made my chest It's permanent nightly visiting nest (What?) It ain't no clothes that I look good in I'm the motherf**in' big red train that couldn't I got no family, I stole they sh** (Okay) Restraining orders and I still won't quit I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more I been missing for a year, nobody's lookin' (I am) I got beat down and my sh** tookin' (Ooh) I look ahead and all I see is more of the same Or this self inflicted bullet hole pourin' my brain [Suicide Hotline Operator] Oooookay, I understand that you're in pain, okay? I understand everything you're going through I've been there myself, okay? Now, your pain is my pain, alright? And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend Just me and you, friends [Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)] I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel (What?) The dreams are gettin' serious, think I'm in trouble (Oh my..) I don't hold memory for more than an hour I'm tired as f** and I'm drained of power I ain't half way there and I'm all outta time I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine (Oh no..) I been around the world but no place is home I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome I'm bu*t naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk It's my last hours alive, who gives a f**? (Me) It don't matter, I'm doin' the sh** in the garage Tryin' to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage This b**h I loved, I hope she finds me Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me (Wait, wait..) I'm 'bout to do it (*beep*) Can you hold for a second? (Wait a min..) [Violent J + Girl] Hello? (Hey, what's up?) Where you at? (Right down the street) With who? (My girl Shannon, we were wonderin' if we could stop by) Well sh**, yeah, come on by (Really?) Yeah..hey hey hey hey (I know, bring some blunts alright) (*chuckle*) Alright, bye