Violent Femmes - I Held Her In My Arms lyrics

I'm gnawing on the knowledge That i have been burnt And i'm learning things that i Should've already learnt Everyone i ever knew Was so kind and coy I was with a girl But it felt like i was with a boy I can't even remember If we were lovers Or if i just wanted to But i held her in my arms I held her in my arms I held her in my arms But it wasn't you I will not k** The one thing that i love In this world of wreckage I look above Help me lord Help me understand What it means to be a boy What it means to be a man