Vatic - I Might Die If I Go to Sleep lyrics

[Intro: Gripp] It is 3:12 AM 3:13 now And I can't sleep Again! [Verse 1: Gripp] I feel like sh**; that's real life, kid Frozen pizza, Miller Lite's the only meal I get Ripping pages out my rhyme book. I don't still like this Feel like a deranged parent tryin'a k** my kids Drive them into a lake. I'm having a mental debate With the voices in my head like they won't let me escape They're incessant. I told them to quit pestering They just won't learn their lesson. I need to lessen my ethyl intake I skipped everything; it really felt great I wish that everyday could be a mental health day But I'm stuck between twelve steps and the twelve gauge Between latching my safety belt and stepping on the beltway No, I'm not suicidal yet But even so, I wouldn't take this as an idle threat The voice in the side of my head keeps calling me I just want to shut it off and drift off to sleep [Hook: Vatic] Sleep when you're dead I might die if I go to sleep There's voices in my head And I swear that they're not me They said I'm crazy, I'm angry And I can't disagree They said I'm wasting my brain away And I know what they mean La la la la... [Verse 2: Gripp] Okay, who's coming with me? Sing an ode to self-destruction with me f** this one, I'll get another kidney Could give a f** if renal failure makes me even paler I'll take a hundred fifty shots 'til the thunder's wimpy Hallucinate i run the city through the dry heaves Then Ustream shouting, “Why me?” on live feed That's what you're asking for, right? What you expect of me? Writhing on the bathroom floor? Crumbling into feta cheese? Just like a bed of leaves, repressed memories I'm drinking heavily, it's draining all my energy I got a message from my future self. The letter reads There's a path ahead of me that's all paved with deader trees It leads to a den of thieves taking ketamine Laughing 'bout the petty reasons I believe they're enemies I want to get to sleep and I could do it sober But tonight I'm using the booze to go induce a coma [Hook] [Verse 3: Gripp] I woke up queasy, already feeling trashed Broke a pill in half; last one, just k**ed my stash I need another 'scrip. This world'll feel my wrath On the warpath k**ing dragons with a million stabs That would be really bad, if I lost my hold on life My brain's already like a G.I. Joe Cobra strike Lucky I've got insurance at all anymore Sanity is a luxury we can't always afford I'm not supposed to be drinking, I didn't want try it Want to go on that diet. I guess I'm non-compliant I guess I'm on a riot. I can't quantify it Just know I'm lightyears from the nearest harbor island My odometer's spinning; I can't restart the mileage And if this mirror don't stop staring, I'll carve my iris I won't get armed and violent, but I might act wild 'cos every day is a countdown to blackout [Hook]