Valtiel - Distance Yourself lyrics

It was more fun in hell But I'm looking for heaven now I hope you're happy I'm not happy are you happy? I'm not happy And often times at night I wonder What you're doing where you're at If you're happy if you're safe While I try to understand Something in me just wasn't ready Done, had enough let's stop pretending Endings and continuations Letting go begin living Destiny wouldn't let me leave Stuck too many nights Alone isn't where I want to be So I took a trip up north I hope you realize I don't respect you What a tragedy her past will always consume Wasn't faithful wasn't thankful All appreciation wasted Shaking the way she made me feel so stupid No care, remorse, and unshameful The world just wasn't meant for us Only purpose was ourselves Guess I wasn't thorough enough Time couldn't tell me any different Resilient Distanced myself from the feelings Inner sense was always listening Deviating from the secrets Have you ever had to fake your intuition? Evil Imagination written page by page Our experience is gained from the waves we break At high tide denied the feelings that I felt Manipulating my mind in front of the fire Just so she could watch me melt Pa**ing away I'm pa**ing away now My life is an art and d**h is its project I spend my days decorating my coffin Remember you said I was your happy ending Imagined it different We can pretend still can't we? Reinvest in the tragic friendship we left with Undo the damage imagery letting go of the memories Hell was in my heart to begin with Heaven so far and distant But I miss it Every second that ticks I trick myself Into thinking the prison I live in is only a cell Can we really tell a difference? More and more complex it gets The best of it's experience That's all anything really ever is or isn't Forever is only the present Nothing else exists The seconds get more intense The closer they crawl upon us Stronger the dark hole begins to twist Holds us in its grip Alone is where you want to be now We're only slowing us down When everything is within pretend and the road is without The motivation we envisioned inspiration is found You could never be a friend because hell was too convincing Heaven the only thing I'm missing And I'm pa**ing away Pa**ing away now I made it to those gates but my key was rusted Evidently the rain doesn't want me to come in It wouldn't fit and once again My dreams went missing Sometimes we think that this journey is for nothing Resistance is not natural You gotta give to let it go Just know it's a lot like leaving bloody footprints in the snow Look for the path in the road as it slopes Damaging the soul is to grow But only if you get it back And she doesn't take more than what you had Leaving less than what you have to add She was right you went left never minding the mess As you juggle time to reflect Recollect all the events remanufacturing the months Ultimately divide yourself up into past seconds Running for the nearest exit I need to ask some better questions Leaving the answers in the hands of heaven Hell just came so highly recommended You're pa**ing away Pa**ing away now