Us, From Outside - Patient Sixty-Seven lyrics

Here I am, sleeping alone Away from the world I know my voice can't be heard And I awoke fighting for help But I'm drowned out By the screams of those Who've finally lost their minds And the rest of their lives Honestly, if there's not a chance in hell I might as well admit myself You're under my skin and over my head I'm hearing these voices in my dreams It's over and over I'm afraid I'll never escape You and your words sound so bitter-- Can you remember the last time they weren't? Is this something that I deserve? The palms of my hands are bleeding again Here I am, locked in this room Holding onto my life I know if I ever survive You will see the monster inside-- But I swear to you they've led me They led me to this 'Cause I almost lost my mind And the rest of my life Honestly, if there's not a chance in hell I might as well admit myself You're under my skin and over my head I'm hearing these voices in my dreams It's over and over I'm afraid I'm going insane Is this my fault? Did I bring this upon myself? I can't go on without your help And I tried to believe that I'd make it on my own I'm becoming the man You tried to destroy for years Which would be worse-- To live my life as a monster Or to die as a good man?