Urban Nerd - ？ Ｉｎｔｅｒｎｅｔ 〔 ａｒｏｕｎｄ ｙｏｕ 〕 lyrics

They love my mind cause the way my brain speaks to my heart I hate myself, through pain I was drawn to this art I hate this craft Lately my hearts been feeling understaffed You're the one who knows me the best Tell me why I'm so down and a wreck Tell me why my life got me feelin' this depressed, the disrespect Got me feelin' distressed yes I'm impossible to gage Depraved molecules in rage Weekends surrounded by kids I don't know Girls come through wanna f** snort blow then they go And it's all good till you're sitting in a dark room then you Realise in your life nobody's really got you Rotting away, my night fades away today and I can't show my Face around school Around you Around you Used think this sh** was cringe, now I binge watch Want a gold Benz just to flex rock, diamonds on my wrist clock b**h watch while I hit top Wondering if I'm a f**ing freak while I'm sneaking down these Streets Terrified to sleep refuses my sheets just wanna christen me Listening to slightly outta tune rap beats While I'm praying for a better mic And begging god for a better life But I'm walkin' from a different time Speaking to a bunch of imbeciles who've lived a different type My teachers like beg and choose while they tell me that I'm Utta line Everything's in different shades of black and white It's my highlight of a life, yeah these letters that I write Nobody gave a f** about my feelings till I made them rhyme Known as the kid who speaks a lot I would die for some quite time, a silent mind I technically been known to overwrite Stay awake and write overnight Familys asleep outside, while I'm writing tracks by the Candlelight Out of sight and out of mind Never been much of a socialite Never deliberately been a bad kid, there's just been situations In my life where I sorta lacked wit Sorta lacked it, yo I never really had it I'll sleep when I'm f**ing dead, I don't need the practice