Upgrade HipHop - I Don't Fit In lyrics

We the generation of prescription pills Gotta get them filled let us keep it real The feeling we escaping for a piece of thrill To reach guilds of peace of mind, I'm reaching still Just lab rats fed by street doctors Underhand over the counters while police watch us Real MD's will don't see disease to restock us So we plot their weak spots to feed proper It's so easy to abuse it, giving us a script for the pain never proved it The first pill had to take was intense, had me feeling I was different or insane in the head But I came to detect that many ladies and gents, were unable to rest until obtaining their meds Try explaining my stress, but you need to go through it I took pills to see what it's like to be human I don't fit in, but I won't give in Always felt different even seen as a kid I was off in my mind, trying to hide Trying to face the world without a soul on my side Knowing I ain't the same, something off in my brain Asking me what's wrong there's too much to explain So I'm forcing a grin, don't know where to begin Had to come to terms that I don't fit in, to this world (chorus) I was only comfortable when it came to music Trapped inside the headphones my life secluded I was on the rise to feel pride and do this But the street cred and hustle and I had trouble to prove it, I was Wondering clueless if the struggle I knew is not enough to be included So again I finally had thought I found a place to fit in but instead it seemed I only was intruding Now imagine everything you ever worked to achieve, was denied for the fact of a person's beliefs Even though I never fit in, I never could admit it, and still continue spitting while I'm checking for admission I'm pa**ing on the L's when they pa**ing me the lighter Breaking up the cypher, now they pa**ing on a cypher? Just because I don't smoke weed Doesn't mean I can't get on the mic and smoke MC's So I wrote low key, left me so empty Just another place I never felt at home or free Walk right past like they don't know me Just another face in the crowd with no ID (chorus) Know that there won't be no one there, when you're alone and in despair Feel like the world just doesn't care, they can't relate our life impaired Had to learn as I got older, I'd grow to be a loner Never warm welcomes, just the cold shoulder Panic disorder and the social anxiety had me in and out of jobs with the hopes that they'd fire me I have tried it all, don't know how I managed Feel that I was born scorned on the wrong planet Feelings being torn sure had it's advantage in a black padded room strapped to the Craftmatic