Unseen - Beautiful Pain lyrics

[Hook: Sia] I'm standing in the flames It's a beautiful kind of pain Setting fire to yesterday Find the light, find the light, find the light [Verse 1: Unseen] My f**ing heads filled with demons Each one of screaming, begging for a reason to make me grab a heater, co*k it, squeeze it Read between the lines, obviously not happy if thats whats on my mind Cause I seen some sh** when I was f**ing five That makes me believe that what I want is suicide While I'm acting like I'm happy, dear god do not come at me While I'm ga**ing this f**ing blunt to combat He doesn't notice hes the only reason, that I am still lacking the f**ing guts so relaxing I'm being a b**h? somebody get me a maxi I don't care I'm not done venting, why the f** are you still listening I'm not gonna stop until I get my thoughts up on a sixteen Or until I die trying, my minds a violent island....Far Crying But f** crying, cause I'm done trying I wanna Buy what the dealer supplying, I wish that I were lying But I'm a lion [Hook: Sia] [Verse 2: Unseen] Only sixteen, but I got a dream of making it I've been through some sh**, and the rest a y'all are faking it I've hardly got the time to blow a dime in the basement While a dime blows me, f** it. I ain't saying sh** Y'all know what it is, you've heard it all before Crack head daddy, coming home late with who*es But that's in my past and I'm trying to get over it Broken record on the subject, still not sober yet Maybe that's the problem, is a clean mind a happy one? I'm gonna be honest, a packed bowl's like a loaded gun It keeps me scared straight, But I ain't ever wielded one sh** hopefully I never will.... I know I'm not good, I know that I'm not famous I know I'm not black, I know what color my face is How would you feel, if we up and traded places? How would you deal with the bitter hatred and resentment from yourself? Your own piece of hell. Your personalized internalized jail cell Take a step back, quit f**ing judging You need to understand its me who's been loving [Hook] [Bridge: Sia] I feel the burn, watch the smoke as I turn Rising, a phoenix from the flames I have learned, from fighting fights, that weren't mine Not with fists, but with wings that I will fly [Hook]