Ugly Duck Productions - Open Up lyrics

[Verse 1] My best friend always asks why I never have too much to say Why the stress is k**ing me, she knows that I've up for days Why we barely talk she's taken back by just how much we've strayed Says I just reject her, there's a side that I keep tucked away She tells me that she's tired, that simply put, she's sick of it Wonder how she knows it, yet— still I won't admit to sh** Won't tell her about bitterness, (so I) tell lies and I stick to it How could she understand if she never had to live through it Been battling depression since before I turned sixteen Yearned for green, so I learned to scheme— some of cla** mates turned to fiends Worked the beam, in search of dreams, that very pa**ion birthed a king Ever since I learned to leap, careless hurdle seems Now here I am, I made it far; from getting bullied as a teen And goddamn, man I am scarred, probably fooled you cause I grinned Seems I'm cooling with my team, but sh** ain't truly as it seems And if I open up you'll see what's pulling on my self-esteem [Hook] Now should I open up (huh?) Let go of fear and simply open up (huh?) Should I spill my guts to you and open up (huh?) Can I open up, can I open up, are we close enough? Promise not judge me if I open up? Lend me your ear for just a while, as I open up Just take some time to hear me out, let me open up Let me open up, let me open up [Verse 2] Torn between this teaching sh** and simply following my pa**ion One is safer than the other, may seem shallow but asking What would you do in my position someone answer me I'm lost Matter of fact I take that back, advice is cancer to my thoughts As I just stand here and revolt, against this planet at all cost Filled with plans to be a boss, so like a champion I fought Cause I'd be damned if I am forced back to working nine to five With managers all in business, not as long as I'm alive Won't let them tell me what to do; f**er you just yelled at who? Oh, f** me, the hell with you! That other sh** I've dealt with too Can't let them strip me of my pride, that sh** just hit me deep inside Forget it, figure I'm alright, I'll just take all of this in stride Our supervisor up in Avis used to say that we were stupid But she'd worked there for a decade now b**h who the hell is clueless Hey, I forgive her; man, she didn't know any better And I ain't working for Coogie so really who am I to sweat her [Hook] Maybe she should I open up (huh?) Let go of fear and simply open up (huh?) Should I spill my guts to you and open up (huh?) Can I open up, can I open up, are we close enough? Promise not judge me if I open up? Lend me your ear for just a while, as I open up Just take some time to hear me out, let me open up Let me open up, let me open up [Verse 3] Tired of faking happiness but see it's hard not to pretend Logged myself into my Facebook to find I had lost friend I normally wouldn't be bothered , it'd be tougher not to laugh Lost a battle to addiction, you see Joshua had just pa**ed Which back then I couldn't fathom, thought he'd always be around Plus he'd just posted some sh** about deleting his account When I found myself alone, see Josh was one of my only friends That was '08 in VA, and I was oh so lonely then Both, used to hit the blunt at Dustin's house man we were close High school pa**ed and I was ghost, you died of an overdose Remember me being in China you messaged me to say hi Instagramed pics in Dubai and you said that sh** was too fly We spoke of linking up the next time that I'd be in town Next time I'd be in town, it turns out you'd be in ground And I swear it hurt my soul, when I found out you were gone I know how much you loved your little sister and your mom Didn't make it to your wake, and for that I apologize But I was broke up here in Boston going through it that's no lie I guess the silver lining's you escaped this crazy world You'll never feel the way we hurt, being alive just maybe worse Cause we're stuck with racism, terrorists, politicians You ask me they're all the same, blame it on this awful system If god is living tell me why everything is so out of whack Doubt that he will answer that, I'm done shouting on this track