Turnover - Solitude lyrics

Tired of driving through the night Stinging eyes and my knuckles clenched to white And it's still snowing outside It hurts to think of all I've had And all the pain that I've caused with these hands And how I want it back Oh God can you tell me why I can't shake these thoughts that haunt my mind It's k**ing me inside Surrounded by December cold There really is no other place like home No other place I'd go I remember when nights just like this one tonight I'd spend with you and I'd feel alive I'd love to spend them by your side Just the two of us alone in time I still remember how you'd laugh And how it felt when I held your hand They're cancerous these memories They're breaking me like a disease Solitude, I'll be alone Can't ever go back, won't go back home So I'll wait here until my last breath And breathe relief as it slowly leaves my chest