Tunnel Vision TV - Ease My Pain lyrics

Intro: I hear your voice break through the noise and pain.. my heart's refrain.. So why can't I convince myself, this is the right time.. to contend? Verse 1: (Clarky) f**ed.. Standard... That is what my life is like.. Narh I never planned this, And if even in the right of mind If you could understand it; well then f** it fam, in spite of mine I can't even tell my rights from wrongs, nor if right is right? Im weighing up that weed again, blazing bud to ease my pain Ive got devilish eyes and god i couldn't care what jesus says You can blame my past as much as i and never see a change We've all got pain inside us.. i just try to free my brain When by the mic; i write a rhyme, recite a line and in a way; I try bring light to night; night is life inside my brain People try and hide behind a lie i see the evil find a life So if my life is yours.. then blud your mind is mine! Let me take you back in time, at least then you can hear my pain Bleed my blood, heal my veins, be the judge, put me to shame! Give me the blame, repeat the same, let them girls mislead again! Take my friends and break my heart, make me find each and every piece again! Hook: (Clarky) Please can't you disease my blame (its certainly hurting me inside cah) These thoughts won't leave my brain (disturbingly burning in my mind which) Means, me being me i can't be the same (determinedly yearning for the light) Please free my grief and ease my pain! (ive earned it now return me to my life) Hook: (Clarky) Verse 2: (Clarky) Im stranded in this life of mine, abandoned in a life of crime Ive ran it through this mind of mine a thousand times.. still.. If we can't see things eye to eye and you can't understand it Well then damn it, ive got talent... and fam thats f**ing standard! So i dont care if you can't feel the damage caused like iodine Cah me i had to raise myself and brave myself or i would die And you can say you cried for yours i truly had to cry for mine The difference is i fight for mine and you just let it vanish! So is it cos i came from nothing to nothing and nothing i still am That i try to make something out of something like a man Real pa**ion i had found it, and i had lost it too Never take nothing for granted, be true to what you do! See, these diabetes try and beat me on the daily And bare man wanna beef me cah they hate me.. And bare man wanna be me cah they rate me.. But f** it, all this dumb sh**, i can't help how mummy made me!! Hook: (Clarky) Verse 3: (Clarky) Im a c*nt, Am i dumb? Ive hurt so many of my friends So many members of my family, and i can not pretend That in the end.. my hindsight should prevent; Half the stupid sh** i do, sh** i break, and sh** that i will never mend Well, i hope they know i meant well.. I only hope they knew i meant to make them proud But it just never really seems to end well.. And i dont mean to bore you with the facts just know its mad I never meant to grow up fast or live a life of rap! So you dont need to ask me why i spit like this.. Why i was suicidal, why i slit my wrists.. Was i troubled as a child? was i misguided? I just wish my wish, was a bit wise this.... (why's this) This life will never last me, clarky, you ain't gonna stay round And if that isnt bad enough, i still can't get this pain out... Ill slowly smoke my life away until i feel relieved again I only hope to help the helpless, but only if i ease my pain!!