Triumvirat - A Cold Old Worried Lady lyrics

A cold old worried lady Took my hand today She warned of gloom, impending doom I laughed, and I sent her on her way Then as she closed my garden gate She turned to me and stared There was nothin' said, but inside my head I felt, just a little bit scared Alone inside my empty house I reflected on her words Predicting things so bad, I guess she must be mad Still I wish, I wish I'd never heard As shadows began to wash my room Thought about my past The mistakes I made, the dues I never paid Am I a ship without a mast? I know I wasn't always wrong But I wasn't often right 'Cos when being kind means being left behind It's a choice, a simple choice of black or white Everybody gets what's coming And it's just what I deserve I'd be crueler still, 'cos I've got the will But I never, no I never had the nerve I'm a lonely empty body A worn and faded brain So I'll stay inside, where it's safe to hide And never face the world again Is there nothing left to life for Nothing left to do? It's a crazy pain, when your life's in vain I'll be glad, I'll be glad when mine is through I think I'll use my shotgun or a hundred colored pills Though I don't know how, really mean it now I'll try anything, anything, anything that really k**s Lord, a strong imagination Should be locked inside your head Now there is no pain, but I can't explain Why I wish, I wish I wasn't dead A cold old worried lady Took my hand today She warned of gloom, impending doom I laughed, then I sent her on her way