Tre Tristan - Tears of a Clown lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm an unfinished recipe A couple more ingredients and then you'll get the rest of me And I'll be honest, maximum effort is required 'Cause you can try to get the most, but you'll never get the best of me Was kind of depressed, but never did regress I stayed the way I am, and I must admit I am the best But on most days I'm feeling suicidal And the same wheel turns over again like a unicycle Emotions crawling on me like an insect Battle rapping in the mirror just to keep myself in check Drizzy was right, us boys are up to something Must have called shotgun because we're too busy fronting They said sky's the limit, and I'm halfway there Because I set my stakes high but they're looking kind of rare Word to your moms, I'm 99 percent sure Can't put opinions down my throat but I can shove mine up yours [Chorus] I hide behind the tears of a clown Too much stuff to bring me down But I won't let it get to my head Instead I'll just wish that I was dead [Verse 2] Opinionated, take the world and disintegrate it I may be late to say it, but my world: I hate it But on occasion, when I crumple like a raisin I just write a couple bars and it's like I'm on vacation I'm too arrogant, I wish I played fair again If I could be there instead of here I'd be where a cherub is Just too obnoxious, just pa** all your AUXes I'll blast some of my songs and then that's the whole synopsis I promise this, the total opposite of optimist So hop on the bandwagon and try to k** my awesomeness As if it was alive, it's been gone since birth Must've seen my future and decided I wasn't worth it And I mean, we're all freaks in the innards But on the outside we try to look like we're winners And I don't know why we lie, we're all born sinners I just don't get why we see the world so much dimmer [Chorus] [Verse 3] You hate me don't you? I can see it in your eye You think I'm obnoxious and you wish that I would die It's okay to have your own opinion But mine's the only right one so I don't know why you're fighting Sarcastic, stupid, putrid, call me what you will You can tell me to jump and I'll just keep standing still Unless I slip and fall from twelve floors up And they find my body on the floor ugly, twisted and tore up I used to have those thoughts when I was younger Never really felt the pa**ion, never really felt the hunger But I'm all grown up now, like the kid show And Lord knows these kids know my rap game's abysmal But back then for me, sadness was the norm And I knew that I would toughen up the day that I was born That day came years ago, so if you hated me before Prepare yourself, 'cause that was just the calm before the storm [Chorus]