I was plunged once again in cruellest treachery Mindtorned as those whispers of forthcoming sufferance Have pierced the silence , as well as my putrid soul The soul is leaking painfully , filling the remnants in grief Corrupted and entangled ,drifting abroad the shallow graves So silent and imperceptible are my only hopes Tired and overwhelmed by this never ending cycle To extinguish what once torn my existence Of futile deceptions generated by an envy of purity Infused in darkness , bearing pallid shades of gallows dementia Which cannot be attained here, which let me wrecked ashore Here , light and darkness have gone forever Always in the darkest corners of my ,mind , lies hope To lacerate the flesh , till the life pours in nothingness To leek in purest despair , expelling life forever To break the cycle once , to feel extasy one last time... As I drown in this final soliloquy , knives are buried within flesh Blood splashes , staining beauty in everlasting misery Pale , vivid disdain bestruck and grasped my hearth Eviscerated hopes and my will to purify Without salvation , I awaken , drowned and strangled by melancholia Tore and choked by coldness of life , ashamed and silent The world around me , so dark and fragile Dying , raped and slaughtered by my lesserlife Cursing this flesh entangling my true nature , At last I enter my domain , where demons have been slaughtered Where angels have lost the warmth of life , pallid and darkened Where all is pure , covered by a fog of wintry grey And bleeding I'll meet those who've torn my conceptions Who've shown me life , entrapped in a cage of despaired emptiness For I'm draped in shades of forlorn essence Muted and empowered by an enraged howling beast within I became a fallen one , I plunged in the abomination Silence hovered , pierced sometimes with shrieks I arose soaked in filth , of my own mediocrity Blinding my obedience and sickening all that is unpure Wielding wisdom unrestrainable , forsaken my own light All that I touch , lays lifeless in putrid failure Scorched by chagrin of a dying mind , I do not belong here... Forsaken was my existence , d**h mocked my weakness Agonizing in inextinguishable raping of my conceptions For this sufferance was above the extinction of flesh I'm a fallen one , enemy to all...) But those thoughts vanishes with hopes , as whispers change Crawling in a landscape of ashes and failures To harsh revelations , where the pain is unbearable Embedded in a purity so harsh , my hate is unbearable Laying numbed , unable to react , as my soul shrieks Damned within cursed mesmerizing non-sense As it pleads not to die , cannot end my own nightmare Trying in vain to sooth the sufferance in grotesque futility And again I reenter the cycle , as d**h mocks me Life has denied me , obscurity has drained my will For my weakness , but I laugh back , for my strength Pain as opened me her arms for the last time To not succumb in what all engrieved souls did To fall at heart of all I fought for , in d**h I may find soothness , but never peace of mind For the discord engraved is too present and unbearable And perhaps d**h disguised as those whispers Knowing my weakness , is trying to end my life Pain shall forever flow within my essence.