Tormance - Boy lyrics

I don't know where to go from here, full of fear at the moment Think I need a f**ing beer, to take the edge off What happened last night damn near took my head off Saw something unbelievable and knew it to be true Didn't see it coming no warnings or even clues But who did it to me or did I and what would it do to you I've heard or lucid dreaming but I thought that sh** was boo Through the looking gla** television twisted askew Reflecting views of a ruse of requiring booze Responsible for losing my cool and highlighting my blues Askin what happened last night and actually remembering it Disa**emble my peace of mind, could I get a membership Could this be the December of pretending to be better than Years new I'll leave the group and preach the truth like Lennon did Maybe throw away my hate and explode my fear I might throw it into gear But I'm nervous Where do I go [x2] I'm not getting any higher from the way I live A veil's been lifted, foolishness is what it is I was sure I had everything I could ever want But now I've seen something a rapper could never flaunt I doubt that you could buy it like a bens or better lawn But that gra** looks greener than this side I'm on Better break through, make my move, I need to neglect What I collected with ill effect in retrospect Increase detection of disrespect and the will to eject The pieces I need to keep I guess I'll just have to perfect Lessen the mess in my head the opposite with intellect Disconnect from anything that's liable to infect Now I'm questioning everything I thought was correct Beliefs leaving at a rate that's arresting what's next Guess it's a blessing I think my stress level's less Devil's absent I feel God's presence inside of my chest But I guess for the moment I'm talking out of my a** I really have to f**ing clue what's gonna come to pa** Is hate for white people Or is it for black people And what does for mean And who am I asking I'm about to search my soul for whatever I am lacking Hope I ask the right questions this was unexpected like acne But not unwelcome or stealthy I think it's here to help me Heaven or naw, whatever I saw took me off the telly Got a look inside I got the juice I gotta drink Delve deep and let loose a spirit long been asleep Where do I go [x2] Oh I know