Tormance - Wasted lyrics

[Verse 1] We all die but I'm only afraid of this side We all try to succeed but it seems like losing time The enemy, no reason for anyone to climb Above their brother and smother him like a child when he cries Gasping, grabbing for breath, clawing their neck No talking, brawling for best, stalling what's next The only way to be certain I'm not the one who needs curing I'm learning the patterns it's just my kind of insurance I writhe in my hurt while writing the nicest of verses But meditation takes pain away and so crisis averted The Sun light's burning my eyes, fiery heat of a murder Or could be colder than ice just like the k**ers you've heard of Who for some reason get prime time, the information lime light I spent too many hours reading bout them now in hindsight And I might've been to blame for my depression true lies And in my eyes, beauty, I don't know why you try to cry Life is waiting for you praying you'll collect yourself by night You gotta fight and stand your ground I wanna see everything alright Because beauty is you and me taking life to new heights But I still don't have a clue, I don't know why you try to cry Or idolize cyanide or think you get a free ride Drink and you get left behind, have yet to see your prime Weary eye, nearly, tried, die yearly, seem fine Listening to a mind called “Will never be high” [Hook] Still I decline to raise my soul up Waste time even though I Know I know better but (x2) [Verse 2] Please excuse me for complaining about your playing But I learned recently that I just prefer to weigh in Got it from a message of expression from 80s And now it's common knowledge e that souls need saving I keep braving the odds of reincarnating So I could waste days on video games and dating It k**s me how I continue to divulge in these interests What I need to do is take my mind and knock it off the hinges Hop the deepest I've ever been in my own consciousness This psychotic wandering, tryna find a positive Want something to astonish me or move me like astrology Gotta make a promise and prove to me it's not to be Heard he couldn't discern fiction from reality Geez, if that's the case then I'll have what he's having Perfect this is just what I was searching for, exactly The adverse is weed takes my dreams back from me Decisions start happening am I glad being all about this Or would I rather be seeing all around it Either way I'll be astounded when I reach my next life Because I won't see, I won't know how I tried Don't cry, I won't even know where I was at but I'll prolly feel inclined at all times to react, huh Unless I get the sk** set to see back, Cleopatra Back from the dead and coming atcha, that's nuts [Hook]