Top Flight - Does It End lyrics

Verse 1 [Top Flight] Ever since my head on collision My head's been filled with visions Some good, some evil It's like a mix of Golem and Smeagol Most people don't know where I'm coming from Those people don't know what I'm running from See my mind runs more then a track star The only time it stops, is when I rap bars But honestly, I've had enough this Iwanna pull it, and put a bullet in my esophagus Thoughif I do, I know its a mistake So I won't fall through there's to much at stake But, I can't lie, suicide's been a thought Over my past thank God I've been taught “Never back down even when it seems hopeless” “Always hold on even when it seems ropeless” There's no dosage of medicine That keeps these thoughts from embedding in Believe me I've I tried, believed me I've lied A smile doesn't mean I'm not bleeding inside Why can't I figure out how to make the pain numb? Why can't I figure out where it came from? Lord I know I'm going through this for a reason So I'm tryna' stay warm in this world that is freezing Seized in, since the day of my birth I've had a fear of not reaching my worth But I'm the only one keeping me from it If I don't overcome it, then I'm probably gonna plummet Forget that, I'm never gonna fall over I'll fight for what's right, until its all over Cause I already know about the outcome I just have to get to the X, no Malcolm But how come I can't think or brainstorm? On how to find the link out this brain storm See, me and this demon are in the same form But no matter what, I'll never change for him Lord why is this war so consecutive? Why are my thoughts so competitive? Why is my pain so repetitive? And why is my brain the executive? Man, can someone just show me where the exit is? I can't stand this, I need to grow a leg for this But I am this, So where's Krieg for this? I just wanna fly free, where's Pegasus Urgently, I need to disperse of these, thoughts that are cursed in me. Certainly they'll vanish, but when? and if they don't,does it end?