Toluca Lake - Balboa lyrics

I don't know if I believe what you wrote Half-hearted farewells and failed attempts to cope I don't know if I've been sober, I've spent time alone Drunk enough to say that this is when I've felt a ghost I never meant to cut your throat I only meant to cut the rope Tried to get what I thought I desired Spending years apart until we both got tired Of waiting, of hating, but you were not the right mistake to make And I am just a life to take I've been running faster lately from things I can't escape I can't stop myself from wishing I threw my promises away A few weak words with perfect chemistry that never seemed to break Only bond your expectations of me and all my past mistakes Just the wrong way to try I did my best to realize And maybe I've been blind But at least you know I tried looking up at the light I never meant to cut your throat I only meant to cut the rope I've been running faster lately from things I can't escape I can't stop myself from wishing I threw my promises away A few weak words with perfect chemistry that never seemed to break Only bond your expectations of me and all my past mistakes All my past mistakes Everything you hate All my past mistakes Everything we faked