Told Slant - Lack lyrics

I want to swim way out Where the sand slopes down Where all I have to think about Are my muscles and My arms and legs And the blood and oxygen in them I don't want to be a boy And you don't want to be a girl I hate the way your friends make me feel I was not myself But it was love I felt When you tied my hands back with my belt It's the lack that I still love The space between the punch and the pain that comes But it's not in my heart