Verse 1 First off, I'm sorry to my grandma I know I said I'd call I just read your birthday card and hung it on the wall You are a shining star in my life and I haven't appreciated it I value our relationship You are a queen, look at that mirror like you are flawless I hope you move to Ma** so I can see you more often And we can spend more time together, yeah, I hope you live forever Thank you for your letter And I'm sorry to my sister, I know I was supposed to give you a time that you can call me I saw the picture that you posted up on Twitter, it made me laugh I was ashamed I never got back to you, that's why I didn't tweet back I know you're going through a lot, and I respect you You're like the smartest person who I've ever met too So, I hope college is going well, I hope you're learning stuff Just know I care for you so much, I love you Chorus And I ain't got no excuses I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself And all my talking has been useless Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words I'm sorry I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward I'm through with myself Verse 2 I'm sorry to my close friends at college who left the state I promised y'all I would stay in touch, and I felt ashamed You were my only friends when I didn't have many I've taken you for granted, recently I've been feeling empty Steven you've been my closest friend ever since I moved over here And Andrew you don't even know how much you've helped my whole career I'd give it all to you dudes, listen that's what's due too Hit me when you're back so we can kick it like we used to And I'm sorry to my ex I hope you know that when I heard how my song affected you I was so sad You're one of the only girls I ever really bonded with I was self-conscious and you were the one who gave me confidence So thank you And I ain't gonna lie I still get jealous when I see you with other guys I love the time we spent together Some of the only time I spent as a kid I just wish it didn't end like it did I'm sorry Chorus And I ain't got no excuses I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself And all my talking has been useless Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words I'm sorry I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward I'm through with myself Verse 3 I'm sorry to my mum and dad, I've been embarra**ed 'Cause I barely even been a kid, but that don't mean you ain't been parents I am beyond blessed to have you guys So supportive with everything, so generous with all the time you sacrificed Mum I'm sorry that I rush our conversations Acting like I don't got the patience, that is not how momma raised us Dad I'm sorry, often you feel left in the dark I should keep you more updated with connections I start And I'm sorry to my fans, I'm sorry in advance If a song or if a chant don't meet all of your demands My whole life I've dealt with anxiety and feeling cornered And nothing gets me more anxious than a frustrated supporter I wish I could respond to all your messages I wish I could do all your collabs, I wish we could have a friendship I wish I could fly you out just to show how much it means that you rock with me I hope that this is my only apology Chorus And I ain't got no excuses I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself And all my talking has been useless Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words I'm sorry I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward I'm through with myself