TLP - Why lyrics

[Verse 1] As I sit and stare into the distance I start to imagine What I could do differently to have my life to appear to my senses as a satisfaction What am I doing wrong Why the f** am I here? If I died now would anyone but a few family members shed a tear? Have I been living my life and not fulfilling my purpose Girl I know I ain't perfect,hell I can't even bet that I'm worth it But I'd be a whole lot better to your health Than how you treat yourself Settling for lames,use me to cause the pain to melt And you could save me from myself If I died today could I say I accomplished much If you died today,could you say your whole life you haven't s**ed? One day equals 24 hours And my God if I ain't putting in work in at least half of it,then cause me to embrace the showers Of doubts Because then I wouldn't deserve to have any happiness in and out J-e-s-u-s, in my h-e-a-r-t Yet still mesmorised by that weed Is that bad Or is it bad that you automatically judge me when you got a log in your eyes Tryna take out the speck from mine I ain't no preacher I could never be I'm too screwed up mentally Guess after all I fit in with my whole generation f**ed up in our own individual ways Perhaps this my sensation As I pick up the mic the now fading question is why Why,why the f** I'm here Its all gone Temporary bliss,in my heart it feels long But then I put down the mic [Bridge] I take a little journey outside.... Competing with millions of other people dam I start to doubting that I'm ever gonna be that successful man that was always in my plan But I'm thinking I'd be damned Because I promised to SR we gonna make it,dam! But I'm a puzzle piece that doesn't fit in well anywhere else So I remain loyal to this b**h even if she don't give me wealth She ain't loyal for sh** Giving results to other n**uhs And I'm still stuck here,I wanna make it big quicker! I'm not in a rush Its just I've been putting in the work for years f** my age b**h,numbers don't count with the heart's tears Conundrums in my head I'm facing all of my fears Don't ask me sh**!!!! [Chorus] You don't get me, I doubt you ever will Questions floating in my mind,unanswered still Why stress with all the bullsh**(x2) Either way I'm a do it my way(x2) Why stress with all the bullsh**(x2) Either way I'm a do it my way(x2) [Verse 2] Opportunes Tune opperator Opportune me Give me the opportunity To prove that I am worthy! Worthy to make it in this sh** Sometimes my paradise seems desolate Conundrums conundrums conundrums Say it enough you might get the answer Don't know if I'll make it far one day,uh (But we pray,yeah we pray yeah we pray,everyday everyday everyday) Hol' back,hol' back! See this n**uh ain't settling for no whack (sh**!) I'm still new but yeah I got some sh** I could brag (About!) Coz I been giving it my all all the time and you whack (Nig'!) In the back where all my new friends choose to stab (Me!) So I'm keeping the circle small old n**uhs old b**hes its like dat (b**h!) Don't k** my vibe, ima k** yours when I hear congrats (T-) LPs over LPs of my own in my own home the success bug yeah I catch that (sh**!) So you can look and think what you want but in the end me,audio,mvp,and younique will forever stunt! Why oh why [Chorus] Why stress with all the bullsh**(x2) Either way I'm a do it my way(x2)