Tim Goddard - Holding On lyrics

Verse 1 At night i often dream Maybe cause this isn't the life i want to lead Miss being teen, come home from school, mum made my tea Dad built his life to provide everything for me My nan said i was a handsome grandson But i girlfriend i never really had one At school i never really had fun Hoping it would just be done and i could get gone Teachers said i had potential if i applied my self But its hard when you've no confidence and hate yourself After my parents divorce you can probably tell Didn't help the state my mental health At the same time, trying to get by Making friends at new school, wasn't that guy The kid who would cry, so you ask why Kind and shy, left me on the outside Chorus I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go And I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Verse 2 But that wasn't me, an outcast as it seems People seemed to like me, going through puberty Getting chubby, feeling ugly, and male sports teams Getting changed in front of guys, that were sort of mean With the added pressure of getting good grades The opportunities that lay in your way Going to private school, where fees get paid So you wanted to listen to everything your teachers say But your not academic Head felt like it would explode like a bad head ache Dont want to look stupid, when you make a mistake So you don't answer question to avoid the piss take Though at home i got two of everything instead of wedding rings Two playstations, two homes and two families Thats not bragging 'cause i would have given anything For things to go back to the way they were meant to be Chorus I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go And I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Verse3 Now we never say i love you, but we know we still do And we always will do, whatever we go through And mum i miss you… Doesn't fit in this song but oh well its true See i never thought i would want to go back Those were the worst times that I'd ever had Now I'm glad things are no longer like that But id still give anything for me to go back These lines might be to personal, probably unreversable Before you start hate wait until you've heard them all Before it goes down hill so much that it's vertical Honesty ma be brutal, I don't do it on purpose though Like I miss my sis, yet tension has risen Fix our relationship, something seems to be missing Maybe it's I'm your older bro and you never seem to listen And when i do something wrong i never seem to be forgiven So forgive me Chorus I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go And I'm still holding on I Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go Need to let go, let go