Thomas Reed III - One Hell Of a Drug lyrics

Young man growing up, wanting and becoming a man. Responsible, focus, strong minded, & never into d**. Always stayed sober. Drugs were not worth his career from what he hears. At this point in his life, he wouldn't do it. Around this time he knew it wasn't worth it. Thought it was dumb. One day, hanging out with someone, without knowing, he tried a drug. His body felt a feeling he's never had. He gets a little chill & colder from the bottom of his feet up to his shoulders. He started to lose a little control of himself & became really numb. He still did what he had to do though. But this drug.. this drug.. he became addicted, not wanting to lose the feeling of it. Months, almost a year goes by, it became half of who he was. Loving the feeling, so appealing, that drug someone gave him had raised his attributes through the ceiling; work ethic, confidence, self-esteem & more. This drug... with this drug, he took so much pain & heavy hits, but never really realized how much pain he recieves because from the feeling of the numbness. Thought pain was ridiculous. One day, he ran out & couldn't afford to buy it anymore. Lost. He tried & tried & tried again but still couldn't afford it. Once he realized he couldn't afford this, it hurt him but the drug was still in system, the amount was enormous. With the drug still in him but not having it around, his eyes would show him things he didn't want to see, his emotions would lead him him to anger, pain, tears, & disbelief, his mind & dreams gave him sad messages & showed him bad things as he says to himself "this isn't me". He knows that's not like him but he doesn't know to do, maybe he's so addicted but too hurt to see it completely through. Can't look at himself, can't eat, can't sleep for days. Even couple weeks. Sobering up, realizing now all that drug has done, cons, all the extreme bad but he realized but the pros, he realized the good that drug had done to him. He's confused, emotionally bruised, realizing what the d** doing now & what it went through. Mentally, he doesn't want to deal with all that pain from the drug Physically, he wants back that drug. He thinks to himself hoping he gets it back, but also unsure, saying out loud to himself... Love is One Hell Of a Drug.