Third Eye Blind - 1000 Julys lyrics

planning my attack just before you come back around maybe i'm wrong but i don't know how to back down i never fit in you know i don't belong but you know that i don't care when you and me are strong cause i'm a vampire y'all we toast the blood of our enemies you're still scaring me no still scaring me no and we don't fit in wonder what it's like when you're living with someone like me i'm a freak and i'm nervous when it's easy feral days and i'm s** crazed i put it in with my animal ways that's the sign i was born to be living in i ran around and gave the finger to the ritalin you know you calm me down and i can't say why you say goodbye and burn my eyes a thousand july's i hope you find i'd give you the words but no words come to mind but you turn me so cold so i tell you lies when you let me in it's like a thousand julys when you left i felt the drop like a boom wintertime all alone in your bedroom i don't blame you and i know i'm not your friend how we live young american i guess i've always known i'd be on my own i'd be on my own and i don't know why i don't know why a thousand julys i know you'll find i'd say the words but no words come to mind but you let me in and i don't know why but when you come it's like a thousand julys a thousand julys that's what you are i'd tell you to come back now but we've gone too far and we've burned it out now i don't even try but i feel you gone i lost a thousand julys